A PODCAST

A podcast created for and hosted by millennial women who still don’t feel like they have it all figured out, What The Fuck Am I Doing explores and discusses the thorniest facets of our lives in an effort to ease our collective anxiety about “doing it right.” Be it professional woes, personal triumphs or anything in between, hosts Maddie and SB openly tackle subject matter that feels more suitable for a cocktail-fueled vent session than an unfiltered, public listening forum. Delivering candidness and honesty in regards to our highest highs and [more commonly] lowest lows, WTFAID levels the playing field, cutting through the curated, social-media-filtered lives we project, to instead reveal the cold, hard truth of what it’s like to be a 30-something woman in 21st Century America.

What the FUCK am I doing?

About The Hosts

Maddie teren Adams

A small business owner, writer, yoga teacher and mom of two, Maddie Teren Adams is a self-proclaimed busy body. And she likes it that way. However, upon starting her marketing business in 2019 and constantly winding up stressed out and in the weeds, she noticed a common phrase constantly escaping her lips: What the fuck am I doing? In those raw moments of fear, frustration and desperation, she felt terribly alone. But after divulging her emotional pitfalls to family, friends and her therapist, Maddie realized the question she constantly asked herself wasn’t terribly unique; many of her peers felt just as lost, confused, and helpless as she did. And so, the idea for this podcast was born — and another item was squeezed into her already-packed, already-busy, go-go-go life. And she loves it this way.  

Esbee buchanan

Esbee Buchanan is a native Nashvillian who moved back to her hometown after spending a decade living in America’s big cities: New York City, Los Angeles, and San Francisco. She is an avid runner, novice DnD player, food and drink connoisseur, party planner for her friend group, and doting dog mom first and foremost. Professionally, Esbee works remotely for an AI/ML tech startup based in The Bay. Through the myriad changes over her twenties and early thirties, Esbee finds herself also wondering exactly what so many of her peers seem to be asking: What the fuck am I doing? To answer that question, she has joined forces with her childhood bestie Maddie to tackle the insecurities of life in the modern age. Turns out, she feels a lot less alone!